Recovery (Ezekiel 3:14-15)

First glance birthed jealous thoughts
of awe filled recovery
After glory filled encounter
But later thoughts reveal
Less palatable possibilities

Days filled with questioning
Reconciling what was with what is
Learning how to exist with self-confidence
After receiving unbridled grace
And exceptional calling

Perhaps no pleasant processing
But a tearing of identity so great
That days were needed
To piece life together
In a way that made sense

What if world turned ash
After heavenly vision
Conversations lacking
The depth desired

Consider the shock
Of all theologies corrected
In one instant
When found standing
In awesome throne room

Is divine vision yet attractive
Does requested presence seem safe
Is self ready to be denied
Identity prepared for the breaking